Do we have imaginary friends?

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-04-09T18:19:00

2005-04-09T22:24:25Z

Poetry journal
http://www.livejournal.com/users/loser_luvpierre/
Poetry journal
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Poetry journal
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Poetry journal
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Poetry journal
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Poetry journal
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Poetry journal
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-a

Poems

2005-04-09T19:20:13Z

http://www.livejournal.com/users/loser_luvpierre/

My poetry journal thingie.
Michelle says they're better than I think...
I doubt it.
xP
I suck at writing poems.
Eh, check it out if ya want.
-a

P.S.
I can so dedicate this song to CARISSA!

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-04-07T14:54:00

2005-04-07T19:05:46Z

Table 2: Lunch
The last person you'd expect to turn on you.
Then they all do.
They still hate you.
You don't know why.
The ones you thought actually cared
Sometimes make you want to cry.
You leave for another group
Of people you called friends.
But nobody there talked to you
and after a week,
you're at another table.
No one there even really notices you.
There's nothing left to do.
Back at the first table.
No one talks to you.
Again you're sent away.
Now you find refuge
at a nearby table
with a true friend
who won't leave you.
Table 2 is full of bitches.

The Art of Lying
She says she's mastered the art of lying.
I can believe it.
She says she can lie to anyone's face about anything.
I can believe it.
Somone,
who can obviously lie pretty well, too,
asks if I'm okay.
I think back to when she said she
was my friend.
I notice more than one person
here has mastered the art
of lying.
"Yeah" I nod.
"Okay."
She believes me.
I have lying mastered
better than them all.

Deserted
I least expected this.
I should have, though.
Everyone else already
Deserted me.
So of course
The only person left
Would, too.
The person I thought
Would be with me
When the others were
Long-gone,
Is now catching up to them.
I least expected this.
So of course you left.
Bitch.

To Those at Table Two
Left out.
Un-heard.
Un-wanted.
Un-loved.
Un-noticed.
Un-cared for.
Un-known.
I don't want your damn pity.
I don't want you to feel sorry.
I don't want you to talk about me.
I don't want you to talk to me, either.
And I don't want you to look at me.
I do, however, wish you'd shut the hell up,
And fuck off!!!

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-04-05T19:35:00

2005-04-05T23:45:03Z

I'm making my journal friend's only now. So, if you aren't my friend listen up. Even if you are my friend on here, listen just because I said so. (You could get killed that way, but oh well.!. :D Hahaha Jkjk)

1) Comment here telling me A) Who you are; B) Where you found my name; C) What we have in common; D) What state you live in; E) How old you are. If you don't want me to know D//E, then IM me or E-mail me. I'm sure we can work something out.

2) Add me first..!!!!!

3) If we have a certain amount of things in common, you live near me, and you're around a certain age, then I'll add you.

4) If you're already my friend, I might delete you!!! If I know who you are exactly I will not!!! (Ie: Maddy, Shawna, James... Won't be deleted!) If I forget who you are, just do this, and I'll probably add you!

5) This is only because I don't want everyone knowing certain things in my life. Such as who ____ is. And I might also be posting pictures of myself in here... So, I don't want everyone knowing what I look like. Oh tay??? :)

-Me, biatch!

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-04-04T02:48:00

2005-04-03T18:47:52Z

by billysundypants

It's not friends only, Ari just likes the banner

From, Maddy

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-03-21T18:16:00

2005-03-21T23:18:07Z

OmfP!
This is the most fuunniest page ever..!
And I made it..!
^_^
http://groups.msn.com/XrandomanythingX/animationsthatiliked.msnw
http://groups.msn.com/XrandomanythingX/animationsthatiliked.msnw
http://groups.msn.com/XrandomanythingX/animationsthatiliked.msnw
http://groups.msn.com/XrandomanythingX/animationsthatiliked.msnw
http://groups.msn.com/XrandomanythingX/animationsthatiliked.msnw
http://groups.msn.com/XrandomanythingX/animationsthatiliked.msnw
http://groups.msn.com/XrandomanythingX/animationsthatiliked.msnw
xDDD
TIS HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

&hurt; *(Ari)* &hurt;

Why I'm confused is written in a 'Private' entry. =P

2005-03-09T23:17:07Z

mpmf6777 (6:04:25 PM): come over
ThankYou4DeVenom (6:04:30 PM): Why..?
mpmf6777 (6:04:58 PM): why not
ThankYou4DeVenom (6:05:07 PM): Cuz it's 6:00..?
mpmf6777 (6:05:32 PM): ok well go over tomarrow

Lmao xD

♥ *(Ari)* ♥

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-03-09T17:46:00

2005-03-09T22:59:34Z

I was lookin through Crissa's journal... And came across this..:

im fucking pissed

agh! aris is such a bitch. she wrote this in her lj:

FUCK THIS SHIT! DOWN TO THE FUCKIN POINT! I'LL UPDATE THE OTHER SHIT LATER! THIS COMPUTER'S BEING A FUCKIN BITCH (like someone else I could mention..!) AND WON'T LET ME FUCKIN UPDATE! THIS IS THE FUCKIN THIRD TIME I'VE FUCKIN WRITTEN THIS SHIT!
FUCK IT!
(Subject is a line from Perfect by Simple Plan)

I wrote an e-mail to carissa sayin I don't think her, lindsay, amanda, angela, and basically everyone except 3 or 4 people are really my friends. This is what she had to say :
Not-so-emo Ari Big, huge reality-check.
ever heard of an attention grabber?
"Rip that mask off babe. You're not fooling me one bit. You're just making a fool of yourself."
"And I'm telling you I'm A FAKE!"
*I'm going to say exactly how I feel*
Ari, okay... first off, you are NOT emo. So drop that EmoAri crap. I get mad because it's not true. You have freinds (I know I s pelled it wrong), ari, and I don't believe you because you act fine when I'm around you. Yet you go and write bull shit like that. Would you believe it? I don't. No one does. Amanda actually acted the way she said she felt. And if you feel we aren't your friends, why do you hang out with us? I'm sorry but I can't make you feel better. No one is perfect. There is no such thing as the Perfect Friend. Marnie and you get along so well because you're not around her all the time. When I move, if we leave off on a good note, we'll get along so well but I just feel you're faking it. I find it strange that you like almost everything I like. I feel you're faking it to be my freind (sp... I know). I'm friends with people with great personalitys... You could have a great personality if you didn't try. Stop trying and be yourslef. Maybe this is a good mental slap for you. <3 Love, Cris
And then angela and lindsay signed it.

ever heard of an attention grabber? Yeah, I have. It's something you use when writing an essay.
And if we aren't your friends, why do you hang out with us? Good question... Maybe because I'm the fuckin outcast everywhere I go. And it seems like I am even with you all, who are supposedly my friends. (But friends don't do shit like this, believe me... I asked Michelle.)
No one is perfect. Did I ever say you had to be? No. Did I ever say you were? No. Did I ever say anyone was? No. You did. So fuck off.
Marnie and youg et along so wellb ecause you're not around her all the time. How the fuck would you know? You don't even fuckin KNOW her! You can't say that because I'm not with her all the time like you guys, that that's why we're such good friends! We're such good fuckin friends because she actually cares about how I feel. And she doesn't think I'm fuckin lying to get goddamn attention, bitch.
I find it strange that you like almost everything I like. Big. Fucking. Woop. So I like My Chemical Romance? Wtf does it matter?! Now if someone likes what you like, they're automatically trying to be your friend? What about angela? Or amanda? They like the same shit as you, and me not to mention, and they're not trying to be your fuckin friends. What's going on there? So sorry, I didn't know I wasn't aloud to like The Used, and I didn't get the fuckin memo that only your friends can like Taking Back Sunday. -_-;;
(And my personal favorite-) Stop trying and be yourself. Now I'm fuckin trying to feel like this?! I'm fuckin trying to get you all fuckin pissed at me? Wtfh?! I can't help how I fuckin feel, bitch. So stop saying I'm trying to feel this way. Because I'm not. Fuck you.

I'll update about the rest of my day later. I want to go talk to Kyle now. (Because he's one of my real friends.) See ya, bitches.
--Just to make that bitch, carissa, mad...--
**Comment if ya care, but ya don't, no one does**
x Emo Ari x

and i replied with this:

what the hell is your fucking problem? I try and try to actually believe you but everything you say doesn't add up. i gave you the benifit of the doubt before but this time im notgoing to be miss nice cris anymore. im fucking tired of this! why is it that everytime i feel everything is okay, something has to go fucking wrong. i dont need to know marnie to know that the longer youre away from someone the more likely you are to get along. and bitch, dont EVER try and pull the blame on my FRIENDS. this is between you and me. and us ONLY. angela, manda, and lindsay dont like everything i like....you do. i find that strange. you used to not be like this. when i made friends with you, that was the person i was friends with...not EMO ARI. by the way, youre not emo. How do i know? because i know you well enough to know. anyone would agree with me. so next time you see me, dont pull on that everything is alright face.... be you. now, if you want to try and curse me out agien, you'll regret it. and i dont care if you tell everyone my secret. go right ahead. its just a little anyway. big fucking woop.

cris

if you agree with me comment....

Today is 3 / 9 / 05. A lil more than a month ago she wrote that... Wow... What a fuckin difference a month makes. O_O I'm sooo glad we're friends again!!! =D

I <333 YOU.:!
Carissa!
Angela!
Amanda
Shawna
Marnie!
Maddy
Smart
Kyle
Leah
Nightmare!
MICHELLE!

&hearts; *(Ari)* &hearts;

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-03-09T16:46:00

2005-03-09T21:53:40Z

Today was NRT... It was in color!!! =) That amused me. Lol After the test, I was telling Tiffany and Rory about Good Charlotte... 0=) Speaking like an auctioneer! xD It was funny. Then, we had 4th period... Spanish. -_-;; But, we had a 40 minute FREE CLASS! woot woot Lmao Then lunch... Eh. Lindsay wasn't there, so that's good. ^_^ *(She hates me.)* Then 5th period... Gym. -_-;; We didn't dress out because we had testing, and we had another free class! ^_^ Me and my friend Jessica were looking through my planner n shit. Lol We kept asking people 'Hey, you, kid. Yeah. You. Come here. You got any gum?' nobody did, so we said 'Screw you. Go away. We don't want to talk to you. You don't have any gum.' Lmao Twas funny. Then 8th period... We watched a volcano video in Science. Me and Angela sat across the room from Cris and Manda cuz there was stuff on her desk, and Amanda's. But Amanda sat in my seat. I sat right next to Scott... Angela took the end seat before I could. xP Then they called 'Area' for dismissal. >_< My mom got me. We went home, and set out to deliver our Girl Scout cookies. Lol We got lost looking for Pine Hall and Pine Haven. ^_^ Then we eventually found them, delivered the cookies, and came home... We couldn't find 2 streets... So we went on Mapquest.com... Found them, and delivered them... After that we went to dinner... At 3. xDDD Twas good. We went to Joe's... Lmao Then we came home. And here I am. ^_^ Ta da!!! Jknjkn I'm going to go post Chapter 3 of my story in Slashypunk boys... That community is AWSOME! Lmao Byes!
OMG! MOM SAID SHE'S SENDING ME TO A CATHOLIC SCHOOL NEXT YEAR!!!!!!! = O AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

♥ *(Ari)* ♥

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-03-08T14:35:00

2005-03-08T19:43:25Z

Eh... Regular day today. But tomorrow we have NRT's... Norm Refrence Test... It compares us to the rest of the US... Fun. -_-;; Lol I forgot like everything from math..! xD History was pretty boring... As was Spanish. Lol We have a Spanish test tomorrow... I shall fail... =) Crap... I need Crissa's Spanish notebook for the homework... Lmao Oh well. xD Gym was boring. 6th period we did Wordly Wise skits... We wrote them in 6th, and performed them in 7th... Ours was about vampires... =) It was, of course, Me, Manda, Crissa, and Andy. Lol Lunch was incredebly horrible..! =( Nobody really talked to me... I was on the end of the table, where Andy usually sits, because Andy was next to Lindsay. (Who I'm pretty sure hates me.) 8th period we watched a video on volcanoes... It was okay... I got an invitation to Andy's b-day party!!! =D So, instead of going camping this weekend with me, Shawna, Mom, and dave, I'm going to the party. Yay!! =D (*Is happy*) I asked someone out yesterday... He said he'd answer me today... I haven't gotten an answer yet... =( Idk... Idk if he's home yet... (*Is nervous*) Umm... Thasa bout it... I'm going to go post my story onto slashypunkboys... Hope they like it..! =)
<333 ya!

♥ *(Ari)* ♥

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-03-07T14:55:00

2005-03-07T20:19:23Z

WHAT:
1. is your name: Aria
2. is your nickname: Mostly, Ari
3. are you wearing: Jeans, a black GC shirt that Angela gave me, a black tank top, a bracelet from Shawna, a black bracelet from my grandma, black socks, and underwear.
4. is your favorite thing to do: Go on the computer, have friends over, listen to music, and annoy James... Lol
5. is your room like: A mess, even though I just cleaned it Sunday! XD
6. is your favorite drink: Hmmm... Yoohoo. Lmao I'm a loser!
7. is your car: Eh... Don't really like cars... But I guess a Ford Explorer... Lol
8. is your job: Student at a school... xP
9. is your education: In 8th grade
10. is your favorite holiday: Hmm... Christmas, 4th of July, and my birthday... ^_^

HAVE YOU:
1. Fallen for your best friend?: Could I consider him my bestfriend is the question..?
3. Been rejected?: I've learned to stop asking people out. -_-;;
4. Been in love?: Yeah
5. Been used?: Don't know... *(The Used!!! ^_^ )*
6. Done something you regret?: There's people who haven't??? = O

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
9. You hugged: Angela!
10. You talked to?: Mother.
12. You instant messaged?: Shawna Leigh
13. You yelled at?: Umm... George I think...
14. You laughed with?: Carissa, Angela, and Amanda
15. Who broke your heart?: =X

DO YOU...
19. Color your hair?: Did once... Lmao
20. Have tattoos?: Not yet
21. Have piercings?: 1 in each ear... But I never wear earrings
24. Own a thong?: No
25. Ever get off the damn computer?: Only when Mom yells at me to. 0 = )
27. Habla espanol?: Unfortunatly... -_-;; In an espanol clase. xPPPPPPP

HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU...
29. Stolen anything?: Yesh
30. Smoke?: NO! SMOKING IS BADDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
32. Obsessive?: 0 = ) Nooo! ;D
33. Compulsive?: Dunno... Whatsit mean..?
34. Obsessive compulsive?: Yeah... I have to tie my shoe if it becomes the slightest bit loose, and when I finish tying that one, I have to tie the other one while I'm at it... It annoys the crap outta lotsa people... ^_^
35. Panic?: Depends on the situation.
36. Anxiety?: Hunh???
37. Depressed?: Sometimes... Most of the time...
38. Suicidal?: Sometimes...
39. Obsessed with hate?: Not really...
40. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, gore?: -_^ Ew.

*QUESTIONS*

41. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: Canada! ;P I'm such a loser. xDDD Or New York to be with my coolasallhell cousin, Michelle!!! Woot woot \m/
42. Can you do anything freakish with your body?: (*Tries not to laugh*) No
43. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?: Eyes
44. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: It depends on a few factors. A) If I paid attention to the campaigns of everyone, not likely... B) If I think she can run the country away from the horrible situation it's headed towards... C) She likes the bands I do... D) She is going to follow my plan for a better world... Kill everyone.
45. Would you marry for money?: No, I'm not like Anna Nicole Smith.
46. Have you had braces?: =# Have'em now.
47. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: Yeah... It hurts like all hell! xP
48. Do you like hairy backs?: -_^ Ew.
49. Do you like hairy crotches?: Wtf? What kinda question is that?!
50. Could you live without a computer?: Our computer was broke for a week, and I seriously almost went insane.
51. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc: Umm... I have AIM.
52. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: Well, I just got a new s/n, and deleted everyone I don't like... So... 63, counting myself. Lol
53. If you could live in any past, where would it be: Erm... Donno
54. Do you wear white socks?: Only when all my black pairs are dirty... Lol Which is rare.
55. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: Take them off... Lol Dunno why. xD
56. Your favorite fruit?: Cantalope... Lmao
57. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: White..?
58. What is your favorite place to visit?: My own little world... = ) Other than that, New York.
59. What is the last movie you saw?: Hmmm... I don't remember..! xDDD I think Nightmare Before Christmas...
60. Are you religious?: Yesh. Paul, Chris, Pierre, and Seb are gods. ^_^
61. Are you photogenic?: Hunh?
62. Do you dream in colour or black and white?: I don't remember...
63. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: Sorta... It's all coming off... Lol
64. Is it chipped or fresh?: See above.
65. Do you have any dimples?: Yeah, when I smile I have a dimple on the right side of my mouth... Got it from that asshole I call a biological father.
66. Do you remember being born?: How could I?
67. Why do you take surveys?: They're there..? I get bored easily... ^_^
68. Do you drink alcohol?: No
69. Did you like or do you dislike high school?: Dunno... Still in middle school. Lmao
70. What is the best accent?: Canadian, it's so cute..! ^_^
71. Who do you want to kiss?: Paul, Chris, Pierre, Seb...
72. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: Set because I'm getting ready for school, or in school, when it rises. xPPP
73. Do you want to live to be 100?: Not really...
74. Is a flat stomach important to you?: Not really.
75. Do you or have you played with a Ouija board?: No...
76. Are you loyal?: Uh-huh! ^_^
77. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: Yeah.
78. At home, do you like the lights on or off?: On... Lol I can't see in the dark. xD
79. Do you like your nose?: I can breath through it... Lol
80. Do you think you can draw well?: I have no ability to draw.
81. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: Like 5. xD
82. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: Like 3 or 4... But the only pair that I wear are right next to me... Right (*Points*) there.
83. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: Same shoes. The only 2 others that fit me are A) boots and I'm in gym and don't feel like changing from boots to Converse to boots. or B) slip and slide on the floor in the gym. Lmao
84. Do you write poetry?: Not very well, but yes.
85. Snore?: No
86. Do you sleep more on your back or front?: Neither... Side. Lol
87. Cats/Dogs?: I like cats, but I have a stupid dog. xD
88. Do you lick stamps?: No... We have sticker stamps. xD
89. Do you use an electric can opener?: I wish... I hate these retarted hand ones... xP
90. Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: No... *(Shawna - Hotair balloons are balloons filled with hot air! = ) Lmao)*
91. Do you talk to yourself?: No... Idk... Lol
92. Are you judgmental?: At times... ^_^;;

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN...
93. Smoked your first cigarette?: NEVER! SMOKING IS BAD!
94. Got drunk for the first time?: Never
95. Smoked pot for the first time?: Never
96. Kissed someone?: What's sad is... Never
97. Made out with someone?: See above
98. Lost your virginity?: Still a virgin... Lmao

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-03-07T14:27:00

2005-03-07T19:32:25Z

James is going out with Kaylin Ratner..? Go figure.
Today was Science FCAT...
I was freaking out cuz I had forgotten most, if not all, of everything from last year and 6th grade..!
But, it was okay...
I don't think I did that great, though...
= \
Erm...
The only + about it was in 6th, 7th, and 8th periods we had a free day!!!
^_^
Mrs. Madorma let us just talk all through 6th and 7th..!
Then, in 8th, Mrs. Haire took the boys out to play football.
Me, Carissa, Angela, Amanda, Victoria, and Mrs. Haire's daughter, Anica all stayed inside.
Lol
Victoria was working on Mrs. Haire's computer, Anica was off in her own lil world, and the others were being ourselves...
0 = )
Lol
We went through Dan, Mike, Ryan, Alex, James, and Scott's backpacks..!
xDDD
Nothing really all that good...
Lol
Then we left for home.
Lmao
I hope Shawna can come over so we can get rid of these Girl Scout cookies..!
>_<
I don't remember where these houses are!!!
Lol
Erm...
Yeah.
Update later if something interesting happens...
Byes!

♥ *(Love sucks)* ♥
♥ *(Ari)* ♥

not_ofucking_k @ 2005-03-04T17:06:00

2005-03-04T22:06:21Z

You Are "Dizzy and Giddy"

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

You Are 9 Years Old

9

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You Are the Individualist

4

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

What number are you?

You Are From the Sun

Of all your friends, you're the shining star.
You're dramatic - loving attention and the spotlight.
You're a totally entertainer and the life of the party.
Watch out! The Sun can be stubborn, demanding, and flirty.
Overall, you're a great leader and great friend. The very best!

What Planet Are You From?

You Are a Losing Lottery Ticket!

Full of hope and promise.
But in the end, a cheap letdown.

What Crappy Gift Are You?